今天的日记

二零一二年六月二十四日              阴

今天我又熬夜上网褒剧，看‘溏心风暴’。昨晚出门和高中同学聚会回家后就一直坐在电脑前面，连续褒了20集，终于把整部剧看完。虽然这部剧之前在电视上播过，可是重看剧情依然可以触动我心，我又再次为了一部剧流眼泪。

这部剧讲的是家庭伦理，一家人在一起生活要和和气气，就好像‘大鲍’在剧里说的那句，‘有口也是和，无口也是和（禾）’。要珍惜眼前拥有的一切，要不然等失去那时侯才后悔，那就太迟了。

这部剧我最关注的剧情，是Alfred和常在心的关系进展。他们从拍拖到吵架、从吵架到复合，之后又吵架到第三者介入，看着常在心成天为了Alfred流眼泪，我都会替她心痛。他们俩的关系又令我想起和他的过去。虽然我们没有开始过，可是第一次和他的单独约会足以让我感受到一个女子沉醉的恋爱中的感觉。可惜的是，那第一次，居然也是最后一次。

我和常在心有一样东西很相似，就是我们俩都有一个‘常在心间’，一个属于我们自己的blog。常在心会把她每天所发生的事情当日记一样，记录在‘常在心间’。我只是偶尔有时间、有心情，才会把心情写在这里。而常在心有有一样东西是我没有的。她很幸运，有得得地一个这么好的朋友，在她不开心的时候逗她笑；在她有困难的时候不顾一切地帮助她，还会到‘常在心间’去看常在心的日记，对她每一天所发生的事情都很关心。她还有Alfred为了她写了一本‘没有常在心的日子’，每一篇写的都令常在心流眼泪，我也跟着流眼泪。

写blog的时候我有时会想，他会不会看到我的blog。不管他会不会看到，我今年开始写的每一篇，都用英文来写，因为他看不懂中文。有时候会觉得自己很傻，他看到或是看不到又怎样。我开心还是不开心，他永远也不会好像以前那样send短讯给我，和我聊天、安慰我、逗我笑。晚上睡觉前，也不会再收到一个说晚安的message。我有时候想，事情已经过了这么久，为什么我还是那么执著，那么放不下。他为什么可以变得那么突然，什么都没有说转过身就走。尝试想鼓起勇气问他为什么，可是每当我看见他上线，那股勇气又突然消失了。我不知道要怎样开口，我不知道我应该问他些什么。我很害怕，我真的很怕问到的结果不是我要的答案，怕自己接受不到。所以我宁愿假装当什么事都不知道，假装不care他这么冷淡地对我。

第36集，Alfred因为帮常在心想一宗官司该怎么打而心不在焉冲红灯，造成车祸意外身亡。常在心很难过，在Alfred出意外之前常在心send了一封email给他，想告诉他自己已经原谅了他的过错 。不过Alfred却因为意外而来不及看那封email，令常在心觉得他就这么带着遗憾离开，一直责怪自己为什么不早一点send那封email。虽然我不是常在心，可是我能感觉到失去一个自己喜欢的人是什么感觉。可是如果连他都不知道自己难过，不曾理会自己的感受，这份难过只有自己一个人去承受。心永远留下一道裂痕，虽然眼泪流过了不会再流，可是心还是会痛，会不舍得。。。

曾经和一个朋友聊天，我问为什么自己的心这么软，像玻璃一样这么容易碎。他居然问我是不是还是想他、还是放不下。我说我不知道，虽然没有以前那样会每天翻看他以前send给我的短讯，和我们一起拍的合照，可是那些短讯的照片依然存在我的手提电话里面，不舍得删除。虽然现在的心情和之前比起来平复了好多，但是偶尔晚上睡觉前还是会不经意地翻看他send给我的短讯和我们的合照。看了又会想回以前一起工作、一起吃lunch、一起放工、一起吃宵夜。。。还有那一晚，一起跨年倒数看烟花，眼泪又不自觉地流出来。我不知道，这种心情什么时候才会结束。我什么时候才能完完全全放下，把所有的照片和短讯都删除掉。

Happy Papa's Day!!

It's the 3rd week of June and today is a BIG day. You guys know what day it is..........Yep, it's Father's Day!!!

Really no idea how to write this post, as normally I would have inspiration comes up automatically when I typing. This post dedicated specially to my dad, I'm too shy to express directly my admiration. 

I love my dad, but I never said this to him. Words on the cake, or a drawing, a painting, a photo only could help me on that. I know dad loves me too. Dad is the only working to feed total 5 of us including himself as mum not working to take fully care of 3 of us, I knew he worked hard. When I was still a student, dad never being miserly by giving us pocket money. Especially when I started study in college, expenses increased as you know everything is expensive compared to high school. He will give me 50 bucks every week but I'll try not to spend much and make the 50 bucks last for 2 weeks. He will ask me is my pocket money enough when it's time, I'll say enough when I still have extra accumulated from last month. I can't even reluctant to spend his money till I started teaching part time, have my own income that enough to spend for a university student, I stopped getting pocket money from him. But still, he will think the money not enough for me and ask do I need money from him.

When I was still a student, I was kept thinking to buy dad something special, things he likes or bring him for a trip when I can afford. Now I can afford but I just wish he could have the time. Kinda miss the time dad brings all of us to shopping during school holidays......This time he'll be off while I working, he'll be working while I off. 

Dad bought a car for me to go college once enrolled to the course as well as pay for the car installment every month. He changed a new car for me due to safety issues after my 2 times car accidents. Daddy paid my fees for 4 years from Diploma till Degree, it's not an easy job. Not everyone is lucky enough to have a dad to pay all their fees as well as some expenses and I'm lucky enough to have that. I wanted to say, I wouldn't be a university graduate without my dad. And I've graduated, he was honored to attend my convocation. 

Dad's handsome pic taken in Hong Kong

Dear Daddy,

Thank you daddy!! Although you couldn't understand this, but I wish you know that I will always love you! 

Loves,

Ying Ying

A Morning Shock

Hey it's June! Half of the month has gone, and finally I went thru the 3 months probation & being confirmed!!

Thanks to all my colleagues for the efforts & support, I was happy working with all of you in the 3 months time. Looking forward for more improvements on myself in the next 3 months time, this is a target of my own. And one thing I failed, I know myself an easily sick people. Was trying not to have a MC in this 3 months probation, but I took 2 days MC continuously on 14th & 15th. 

Thursday night I was attacked by light flu but I make sure the flu wouldn't get worse before I sleep. Who knows, things come unexpectedly sometimes. Midnight 2.10a.m., I was awaken by annoying nose water which came out while I was sleeping. Alright, it's fine. Got tissue papers and spout it out, back to my bed, continue my sleep. Again, at 3p.m., same thing, back to bed, sleep. Again, *getting frust* at 3.50a.m, *damnit how many times you want me to wake up and I got not much time to sleep!* same thing. Mum asked me to get a glass of hot water, I got my blanket along to downstairs. After that I try to sleep again on the sofa bed in living room. Gosh 4.20a.m.!!! Again!!! I was about to cry I didn't have enough sleep how am I gonna work?!?! Till about 5a.m., I really can't stand anymore, got the medicine and throw inside my mouth together with warm water. 

Went to bath, was struggling to go for work as I was feeling a lil bit dizzy. Don't know the medicine started work or I was really feeling sleepy. Dad stopped me to work after seeing me keep struggling to go work, he just worried I'll fall asleep on the way driving...Text my colleague, Theng to inform her I gonna take MC. Laid down on the bed and I fell asleep till 7.50a.m., I know it's too late but I was still thinking to go work maybe abit late. After further thoughts I text my DOS, Suresh to inform that I'll be on MC. Went to see doctor after that in the evening. Had my early dinner after back from clinic, it was about 6.10p.m.. Ate medicine and went to bed at 9p.m. sharp. Alright, flu settled and ready to start work next day. Who knows......

I woke up around 5.15a.m. and went to bath straight. Done shampoo-ed my hair and wanna put on conditioner, I started feel dizzy and a kind of sound appeared right beside my ears. I yelled my mum saying that I gonna fainted. My whole body was like energy emptied and fell then sit down on the floor. No idea my mum was calling me and I can't reply her as I was already fainted. When I woke up only I realized my mum was kept knocking the door and calling me, and I was lying on the floor. I still feeling weak but tried to put on towel and went out from bathroom. Just one step out from the bathroom, I fainted again with front part of my body facing the floor. Mum says I awoken about 3 mins after she & my sis kept putting ointment on my head. She asked am I ok, how I feeling but the first thing comes out from my mouth was ‘I haven't done my bath yet...’. She asked‘You still want to go for work like this?’ They kept putting ointment on my head and after 5 minutes, I tried to wake up and put on my clothes. Mum made a glass of hot Milo for me and I was trying hard to use the energy I have to finish the Milo. Mum called ViNi, my colleague to tell her that I fainted and not able to go for work. I was like dead and exhausted, mum carried me back to bedroom. 

Dad was like blaming me for skipped dinner before sleep, I can't even retort him saying I just had dinner earlier and sleep earlier. No idea why this happened unexpectedly and don't have any sign at all. Went to same clinic again in the noon but it was closed, went back again in the evening and the doctor asked me to go hospital......Couldn't drive and mum called aunt who staying nearby to fetch us to hospital. The result is I have low blood sugar, normal people will have the figure 4 but I have only 2-3. Was very tired while reached home, slept after medicine taken. Went to tuition class this morning as usual accompanied by mum, just in case something happened to me again. 

Well, just wish flu could go as far as possible from me. Try my best to increase and keep the blood sugar level at normal.

Food Review - Luncheon @ Favola for Food Tasting with Guest Chef Stefano Merlo

Hey guys & girls! How's your weekend? School holiday is finally ended and students are gonna start their new semester tomorrow, and the worst thing is traffic jam gonna start all over again @.@

Anyway, I'm not gonna talk about the terrible traffic. Remember I owed you guys a food review? It's been delayed for a month plus......

Alright, straight to the point. That day, all the coordinators were brought to Favola for the food tasting by Online Distribution Manager - Damian, with his executive, ViNi Chee, total of 6 persons. Okay, let's start with first course...

Ox Tongue - It's a traditional dish from northern part of Italy. It has mixture of beef ham and different part of the beef, the sauce made from 90% of parsley, vinegar and capers. This dish good for winter time and it is a common dish in Italy for winter.

ViNi says it tastes like tuna, while we don't dare to taste it

Burrata - Burrata is a fresh cheese from Italy, made from mozarella trimming and it tastes creamy. Burrata has a very short shelf life which only can last for 5 days to stay fresh. This dish served with pasata (tomato paste which has a strong taste of concentrated tomato),karazan (crispy bread) and steamed egg plant to keep the strong to pure taste.

Let's have a nearer look...

Pizzas - Additional dishes from Favola. Both pizzas taste good especially the seafood pizza. (2nd pic)

Ravioli - This is a classic dish which there are ricotta cheese and spinach in the ravioli. Taste great!!

Drooling?

Risotto - Risotto is an Italian rice. This risotto made from seafood stock, served with prawns & squids.

Gnocchi - This is a very special dish. Gnocchi is actually an Italian soft dumpling, made from potato and beet root. This is because why you see it in red color, because if the beet root. It served with gorgonzola cheese sauce, and the foam made from Lecithin which able to cure cholesterol.

Truffle Mushroom with Chicken Breast - This dish slow cook in soulida, an Italian cooking method for 30 to 40 minutes and served with chestnut.

Fake Polenta - This dish made from fresh milk and sweet sauce, served with capers and oil with charcoal.

Seafood Fettuccine - This is another additional dish from Favola. I love it!

Milky Risotto - Risotto again in dessert style. The milky thing is risotto and the red thing is raspberry. The stick on berry actually made from chocolate. This dessert made for kids and babies in Italy. What a creative dessert!

Choco Belle - This is the most dessert I like and probably kids would love it very much. It made from raspberry crushed ice and hot chocolate and you have to eat very quick as the ice will be melting very fast because of the hot chocolate.

Firstly we were given a small glass of raspberry crushed ice.

Chef will start pouring the hot chocolate on the crushed ice.

Ta-Da! Scoop till the end the crushed ice will come up together with hot chocolate. Put it in your mouth you'll get to taste it different!

Amazing is it? We were so full after the lunch. Get to take a photo together with Chef Stefano before we back to office. 

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That's all about the food review. Are you guys forgetting something important? Yes! Father's Day is around the corner!! 

Honor your beloved father a lovely buffet dinner at Latest Recipe, on 16th & 17th June, from 6.30p.m. to 10.30p.m.. Price from RM148.00++ per person and, father dines FREE with 3 paying adults! Make your dining reservation now at 03-2263 7434. For more information, please click on the link : http://discoverlemeridien.com/